awhile: July 15, 2010

I haven't posted in awhile. I'm really just trying to let things build up. I'm steadily making a list. Once I get a nice little list going, I am going to make a 3 part blog that will be posted on a 3 day period.
For now, I'll just tell you the greatest advice I have heard for today. I heard This from my friend Andrew. "When we're too scared to face the truth, we turn to the lies. We wear the masks so no one will see our true feelings. How long will it be until we finally get fed up with letting people see only what we want them to see? Rip off the masks."

Until next time, Todd Etress

July 4, 2010

I didnt blog yesterday. It has been very busy. But I do indeed have alot to talk about. It will have to wait until after the holiday though. I hope everyone has a great fourth of July.
Today, I have one think to say. I made a quote up. And its sooo true. "Life is like suduko. You pick one number, but you can only have it once. Then you have to move on to a different number"

Until next time, Todd Etress

I'm Shocked: July 2, 2010

Oh my freaking gosh. Okay, let me blog about my life here. Okay, I just graduated in May, but while I was in highschool, throughout my junior and senior year there was this guy. I had the biggest crush on him. And it was known. Our group of friends knew, he knew..everything. Well, I thought he was gay and I was always sure he was. Until he started dating a friend of mine which was a girl. Well, even after that I still thought he was gay but I just kinda gave up. You know, you just can't keep dreaming and hoping for something that isnt there. So in my head, I just see him as my gay acting straight friend. He was my best guy friend in highschool. We had are little fights here and there, but he always stood out over all my friends. For instance, if I had a prob, I would ask everyone but rlly only listen to his. Anyways, he came out to me. He reallly is gay. Now, of all times, I'm lost. My highschool crush, gay. Not only is he gay, but he has had a boyfriend for almost two months. And not only that, but when he gets sad about something, I talk to him about it. The fact of him being gay is amazing, but can I really say anything? I'm not a home wrecker and I'm sure if he knew that I still thought the world of him it wouldn't really change anything. And at first, he wouldn't tell me the guy he was dating. But yesterday I found out. And it made me realize that he doesn't date for looks. He must clearly date for personality. Which makes me wonder, am I a bad person? Whats wrong with me. Ugly? Annoying? Weird? idk. But if this guy makes him happy, then, thats okay with me. I just wonder why he never came out to me. I wouldn't have told anyone... Or maybe he just needed to wait till after grad for his own insanity. But it still leaves me wondering "what if" ya know. So for now, my best guy friend is now truely gay. So, I guess this is the part where I stop crushing on him and just be there as a friend. Funny thing is, I remember tlking about my boyfriends at the lunch table. I would talk loud just to be sure he would hear me lol. Hoping something would be said and he would just finally come out. Fact being that I would have dropped anyone for him in a heartbeat. Seems like almost everyone I dated, in my head, I compared them to him in some way. But as I said, it's just water under the bridge now. I should have told him sooner, but I didn't want to ruin a friendship. And I don't think I should tell him now because I don't want to ruin our friendship. So, this is where I need you guys. I have over 100 views and I only have like 5 blogs so I know someone is reading this. Just tell me, what should I do? What would you do in this situation? If you don't want to leave a comment, feel free to email me at todd172009@aol.com

Until next time, Todd Etress

Been a Few: June 30, 2010

Sorry guys. It has been a couple days and no post. Well lst night I went and saw the midnight showing for Eclipse. It was amazing. Today, I totally nailed my Speech in speech class. I'm positive I got an A. The other day, the 29th, me and my mom got into an argument over something stupid. But thats all done and water under the bridge. Honestly, I haven't thought about what to post as a blog. I haven't thought of anything at all. But for this blog, I'm gonna update you on me. If you are a friend of mine, have you ever asked me how I am and I say something like, been better? Or fine? That is exactly how I have been the past week or so. Fine. Does anyone know what the word fine even means. To most it means well, or manageable. To me, fine means, Fucked-up, Insecure, Neurotic, and Emotional. So, now you know what I mean when I say fine. I am not dramatic, don't get me wrong, but right now, I am fine. Being single has been great. No leashes. Get to go out and do as I please without having to come up with an explanation. Don't have to deal with dumb rumors that try to jeperdize (dnt know how to spell that) your relationship. Well, this past week or so, I've realized that I don't like the single life as much as I thought. Here is the problem with the world, expecially in gay world, everything is always either drama drama drama, or sex sex sex. Why can't it just be right. great. wonderful. Maybe even almost perfect. I've always been the kind of person that laughed and the happy ending in the movies and books because I know it isn't really like that in real life. But just once, for me, I wish it could be like that. All I wish for is happiness with someone. No strings attached. Something true. Something that doesn't need money, sex, or drama to last. Something that last just by looking at eachother and knowing it will always be there. So everyone, this is what is on my mind. I want that person that fits this description. Who is he? I don't even know the answer to that question. But I know he is out there somewhere, and one day, maybe just one day, I'll find him. And everything will be great. Until then, I'm going to write..and paint..take pictures..hang with friends...listen to music..any thing that can keep me happy. And hopefully one day, maybe even sometime soon, life will introduce me to this person. Me, I have never really had a set criteria standard on the person I date. Usually, I just make sure the person isn't way bigger than me and the person has a great personalilty and is sweet. But now, I have a set criteria. I want sweetness. Real love. Someone that doesn't seem sex dependent. Someone who is into the same stuff I'm into. Someone who I can have a good time with. Someone I can trust. Someone I can have nice conversations with. Someone that I have things in common with so we can both enjoy things together. This is what I want. And it's what I deserve. And one day, this person will be mine, I will be happy. It will be my happy ending.

Until next time, Todd Etress

The surprises in life: June 28, 2010

Wow, who could have ever guessed that having a bad day could be soo much fun haha. I mean, I loved college today. For starters, the altenator on my car went out. For those of you who don't know, the altenator is what keeps the battery charged. So it went out the other day so I have been having to charge my battery everyday. However, yesterday, I did not charge it at all. When I went to leave for class this morning, it started up. I was soo happy. So I drove my happy ass to biology and sat there for 3 hours. So I get out of bio and go to my car. IT WONT START! Well, I get a friend to come and jump me off. Well, I just kinda started talking to her today, so I don't reallly know her name. But anyways, after it was running, I had a bright idea for me, her, and my new friend Gabby to go to taco bell for some food. Gabby didn't think it was a good idea, but we went anyways. It all seemed to be going fine. We were just about to pull out of taco bell, and then it died! We were on a hill so we just kinda rolled backwards into the parking space and I asked some stranger to jump us off lol. It was so funny. Then we got back to school, and went to speech class. After class, it was dead AGAIN! So, our cute friend from class, Todd, jumped me off. So I drove Gabby to her car and my car just didnt want to go. I wouldnt go no faster than 3 mph. We were laughing the whole way. I had the pedal all the way to the floor and that was as fast as it would go. And as soon as I told Gabby I had the petal mashed to the floor, the car sped forward fast lol. It was so funny. So we are laughing so hard and everyone is staring at us like wow. Well then I try to get home as fast as I can before it died. I was nervous when I saw the red light so I cut through the gas station parking lot and then back on to the highway. However, my car died and the end of my road. haha. But it's all good now, the battery is charged back up and okay for now. But it has been a really exhausting day, but very very fun.
Before I go, I'd like to ask some of you readers to post a few comments or ideas about what I should talk about in future blogs. What would you like to hear about? Do you need any advice? Interested in anything? I'm open to all ideas, thoughts, and opinions.

Until next time, Todd Etress

Just a quick bit of advice: June 27, 2010

If you are coming out of highschool, do NOT go directly into summer term of college. If you are in college, don't go to summer term. YOU NEED THE BREAK. I soo just graduated in May, and I jumped straight into college the same week I graduated and I wish I would have taken a break. It sucks majorly. But oh well, I'll get over it. Just another mistake I learned from. But you should be glad to know that I will not be attending next summer, and I will also be finishing up college a bit early, so yay for that.
The funniest thing I have seen today was a video of an old friend, Gabe Gracien. I think everyone should view this video. It is on youtube. Gabe is the most, funniest, randomest, realistic, no whoreish gay gay i've known of. Here is the link, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7tXraSEYNzg

I don't have too much too say about today. Umm, I completely about shit a brick at Jacks today. I went there to pick up lunch for the family. They pulled me up. Then I ended up walking in. I used to work there for about 7 months so I was really polite about it because I know how it gets. Well, I noticed them handing out the food I was waiting on. And I just waited haha. No big deal, right? Well, I looked at the reciept and then the clock and realized I had been standing there for 45 minutes!! I know right? I walked to the car and the ice in the drinks was melted and the milkshakes were too. So I took them back in and made them remake it. I called out the manager. I kinda showed my ass a little bit haha, but who wouldnt after waiting for fast food for 45 minutes. All in all, I got $25.00 worth of food for FREE! Yay. Other than that, I have just been working on my school work. Last minute work? yes.
One last thing before I close out tonight. This just happened. My bro and his gf was in the bathroom together. Mom was asleep. We all are not stupid. We know what they were doing. Mom wakes up and says why are yall in there together. He says, she is in the shower and im taking a shit. Well, the water doesnt cut on until after he says that lol. I hope mom really doesn't believe that. LOl. Wow, the younger generation is just ...scaryish haha. But you gotta love my mom. She tries to stay soo calm lol. She is great. And this message goes out to my new friend who I just found out keeps up with my blog. haha, You are amazing Austieee!!! *Hugs and kisses* <3

Until next time, Todd Etress

Sometimes you just have to: June 26, 2010

"To the world you are someone, but to someone you are the world." This is quoted by my good friend Calah Hipps. This is just one of the greatest things a have heard in awhile. Well, to get started, today was loonnnnngg. I went to Alabama adventure. To those of you that don't know, it's like a mini version of six flags, but in alabama. I can think my mom for getting me the ticket. Yay. I needed the day out. It ended up being just me and my friend Shelby. Zack ended up not being able to come as well as the few others that were looking in to going. But overall, it was great. Got a good bit of a tan to add to the tan I already have. I didn't do a blog post yesterday. So let me take a minute to briefly describe yesterday. Okay, yesterday, I discovered something truely amazing about this world. NETFLIX! I never really listened to anyone when they talked about the greatness of netflix. Well I was curious yesterday, signed up for a two week free subscription, and BAM! instant movie access online. I love it. Well, I watched two movies online. Then as the second movie ended, my fag hag best friend, Angel Taylor, called me and asked to hang out. So from there we went to the mall. Well, the things we talked about relate to things me and shelby talked about today. I can't go to much into detail considering it is their business, but it brings up the discussion for this blog.
People, sometimes you just have to let go. I speak this from major experience. Holding on to the past is most definately not healthy. Don't hold on to the past because there is always a tomorrow to do something new. Move on. Take your mind off thing. Yes, it is very hard to do. And we will always have that little piece inside of us that misses that one person, and probably always will. But what you have to realize is that it didn't work. If it is just one mess up, try again. Two, try harder. Three, just let it go. Dating is exactly how it is often compared. Base ball. Not only do you have 1st, 2nd, 3rd, and homerun, but you also have strike 1, strike 2, and strike three your out. If it isn't okay by 3, just opt yourself out. Walk out of that baseball game with your head up high and go into a new game. Don't rush into a new game, but do it. It will eventually work out. One day, you will run into the person where there will never have to be a strike three. If you ever have the slightest thought of being unhappy, chances are, you are unhappy. So ended before things get any farther. Not only that, but take time for yourself and give yourself thinking time. Make a list of pros and cons (this should not include any benefits such as money) After that, you will get a step farther into discovering your true happiness.
As for me, I'm only 18 years old. I can say that I have experienced love, but who am I to know. I still have a good 60 or so years left of my life (give or take a few) I now know that everyday is the start of a new adventure. Life is only going to be sucky if you have a sucky thought about it. Yes, its hard to do. No, its not easy. But as I said previously, it is all mind over matter. If you believe you are happy, you will start notice that you actually are becoming happy. Don't let bills, relationships, and bad days get in your way. Love is a good thing to have, but you live life for you. You will be grumpy and aggravated a lot if you do not cut the time for you and yourself! Many say this is self centered. I disagree. Everyone needs thier personal time. EVERYONE! Once you get it, you are more relaxed. Paint, watch movies, go to the mall..anything. But only by yourself. Most importantly, enjoy the time. Everyone wants the perfect relationship. Everyone wants it to just come right into our lives like it does in the movies. Well, when it comes to love and movies, think of it like this. Have you ever read a book that is turned into a movie? That is a long book, that takes place between a long time frame. Then, one the movie comes out, it is finshed withing 2 hours. So love and movies? Think of it as a fast forwarded version of life. So, if you are patient, love will find you, just like it does in the movies. You just have to remember that you have the advantage of playing your own movie at normal speed instead of having to live your life in fast forward. Slow down, view the world. Make mistakes. Learn from mistakes.
So ladies and gentlemen, slow down. Just enjoy your life. You won't have it forever. Make the best of it. To the young generation: Go further in your education. Start your journey to brainstorm what makes you happy. To the people between 21-35, start your happy life. Do your best. Get a job. Save money. Remember to make time for yourself. Start putting your good, happy thoughts into action, without letting anyone hold you back. To the older generation, cheer up. Your life is not over. Be the smiling citizens that still gets out and about. Single, it's never to late to find love. Marry, its never to late. It's better to die with someone close to you then no one at all. You may not think they are that close, but just take time to yourself and you will see.
This concludes my blog for tonight. I put alot of thought into this blog today. I find myself learning and thinking things the past few days and the first thing that pops in my mind is to share what I have learned to the world. So I really hope that if you are reading this, you think about what I have said. Yet again, I know I am only 18 years old, but this advice, it will take you far. If you ever were to watch old shows, or listen to elderly people talk, I'm sure you will here the same advice about slowing down and enjoying your life. Because now, thats what I'm doing. Yes, it gets bumpy, but I keep a smile on my face. And you should too.

Until next time, Todd Etress

A start: June 24, 2010

So, today has been somewhat boring. The highlight of my day was applying for a job at Alabama Adventure. But hey that is boring stuff. Well, for starters, at the moment, I am seriously having a love/hate relationship going on right now. With whom? Oh, you all know who it is. FACEBOOK! So, me and some friends were playing around. And there was this status post you would post and the first person to comment on it, you would have to keep there last name for a week. So I think this is interesting so I do it to. However, when I changed my last name to my friends, everyone started asking all sorts of questions. So, I decided that I will go change it back to my last name...only to find out that facebook won't give me my last name back. So, it's crap haha. Facebook is trying to get me married I guess. This weekend I'll be going to Alabama Adventure with some friends. It should be very fun, as I said in the previous blog. But that is a post ready for Saturday that you will hear all about.
Well, have you ever just really really liked someone. And dated that someone. And it all just be going really good and then BAM, its over. Then at first you don't care, but then you realize you do. Yup, the feeling sucks. I didn't care, but then I realized you did. But guess what, I'm going to make myself not care. If you cant be happy with someone, or someone isn't happy with you, don't try to make it work. Just make yourself believe that you dont care. Life is like a cold. It's all mind over matter. What you mind, is what matters. So tell your mind to hell with whomever. Get yourself back in the game. There are plenty of fish in the sea. We all have our lives ahead of us. Don't settle for any less than what you truely believe you deserve, thats my philosophy.
Okay, let me tell you the 2 most funniest things I have heard this week. One.) My aunt said "I dont like spiders or snakes. So please, if you see one, do not call me over to see how big it is" haha, I loved that. Two.) There is a new 15 minute cure for the cough. Just take a whole bottle of laxative and then you will be too scared to cough. Ah, thats good stuff.
Well, we have talked about current stuff, and dating stuff, and funny stuff. Well, lets talk about family stuff. It is so rediculous (have no idea if I spelled that right) when you have someone in the family, such as my brother, who comes around when he wants something. It's crazy. Then the parent, such as my mom, feels bad for him because he always puts on this act that he has changed. This coming week, the family is going to Florida. I'm not going, mostly because I have class. But even if I didn't have class, I still wouldn't go. I know that when they get down there, he is going to turn the family's summer trip into a trip all about him and his girlfriend. Lord I hope that one day she will learn. But god bless her, she has too good of a heart most of the time, which is a good thing I guess. But sometimes, being too nice will get you absolutely no where. Being nice is good, but you have to put your foot down and let the world know that you mean business. When you are good, you will recieve good in return. But if you are the opposite, haha, well, don't come knocking on my door.
Alright, lets throw some politics in here haha. Me, I could care less. As long as someone I trust is running things in a good way, its fine. Personally, I don't think Obama is that bad of a guy. I mean, hell, Cash for clunkers? GENIOUS! Too bad that I didnt have the cluncker I have now, then. I really wish that the whole clunker thing will come back around again. So they say, history repeats himself. People, you have to get used to new rules. He wants to try the heathcare campaign. He put his whole campaign around it. He is dedicated to it. Damn, calm down, stop fussing, and let the man do it. You don't know for sure whether it will be good or not because you haven't tried it yet. It's like food. Your not gonna know if you like it until you taste it!!! So me, PRO HEALTHCARE! Fire it up. Gays, let gay people be and do, what gay people want to do. Come up with new ways to reduce global warming. If everyone would just plant a few damn trees in their life, that would help. Trees reduce carbon dioxide and make oxygen. Carbon dioxide make global warming. How many people do you know that actually will plant a tree in their yard. Well I'll tell you how many I know. 0. Exept for my dead grandfather. He planted tons of trees. And in my opinion, I think everyone should take 30 minutes out of there day, and plant a tree. It's not gonna kill anyone. And the whole BP oil spill. Don't blame BP. Blame congress!!! Its just like the NASA incident years back. They should have not been so lazy and did a good inspection first, but nooo. I think the places for congress should be very close evaluated before the nim witts get the seat.

haha. well, thats all for today folks. I'll be back tomorrow.

Until next time, Todd Etress

The basics: June 23, 2010

Well, for starters, my name is Jeremy Todd Etress. I was born and raised in Alabama. Small town boy. I lived between the areas of Harpersville and Sylacauga my whole life. My birthday is January 17, 1992. I am a highschool graduate as of May 2010 thank god. My favorite colors are green and blue. I think people are very interesting. There are so many types of people. People who you can trust, people you cant trust, and even wishy washy people. But one thing I have learned out of life is that you have to choose your own friends. Don't ever let anyone choose your friends for you. You could be giving up on a great friendship with someone just because of hear say. I don't do drama. Too over rated. I try my best to keep out of it. For my future, I plan to be a highschool biology teacher. Funny thing is, I'm taking summer classes at CACC, the community college in Chilersburg, and biology is my hardest subject. Yet, I am determined that biology is what I want to teach. Why I biology teacher? I dont know. Thats just what my gut instint is, so I'm going with it. I'm also going to minor in history. This is my first blog, so it's not going to be much of an amusment. Simply because this is just the introduction. Please, let me be the first to tell you, my life is full of more adventure than you would think. From family to friends. From current relationships to ex relationships. From drama created and drama destroyed. It's the whole package. I can honestly say that I learn something new everyday. Lets take this for example. My friend Brent tried to get me to talk to and hook up with someone today. 1st, I have never met this person lol. But what is more funny, is that Brent has never met this person either. Yeah, funny. Crazy friends I must say. This Saturday, I plan on going to Alabama Adventure with friends. Relient K is going to be performing there. This Saturday should be very interesting. Believe me, Sunday blog should be highly amusing I am sure. But for now, this is all I must say. This is the basic introduction to my life. Now, I am going to post my life to the world. Most say that telling all of your problems to the world is crazy. Thing is, I'm not necessarily telling my problems. I'm simply just writing the story of my life as it progresses. And who knows, maybe someone out there reading my blogs may go through the same stuff that I do. So goodbye for now. Be expecting more tomorrow night. I'll be talking a little more into detail about certain people in my life, and how they shape my life into what it is today. This will be interesting to know. I'm sure everyone has all the same variety of people in there life.

Until next time, Todd Etress :)